(Today’s Author is Jenny from MWM Torquay)
Evening all. I hope you’ve had a great bank holiday weekend and enjoyed a bit of sunshine. We’ve been to the beach a couple of times where I enjoyed a little paddle but it’s way too cold for me to swim yet. However, this brings me to this week’s confession; since becoming a mum I am a lot happier in my shorts and t-shirt than I am in swimwear.
Next week sees us on our annual break to Centre Parcs and so this week my yearly body crisis is rearing its ugly head.
The thing with a swimming costume is that there’s literally nowhere to hide and I’m never more keenly aware of my ‘Mum-bod’ than when I’m poured into an unforgiving lycra creation. Yes, I buy a ‘tummy-control’ costume with a padded cup and try to keep darker colours over my lower half but there’s literally only so much ‘illusion’ that one item can create!
The thing is that the media bombards us with images of celebrity mothers showcasing their ‘sensational post-baby bodies’ and this makes me think I’m a failure for not returning to my pre-baby shape overnight. Frankly it’s quite exhausting.
Personally, four months after giving birth to my second child I was still getting very little sleep. I used to sit awake feeding him at night thinking how restful it would be to be dead. Honestly. During the day I ate three proper meals but also cake, chocolate and crisps because I like cake, chocolate and crisps and it made me happy and I needed that. On some days the comfort I found in food was perhaps the high point of my day. I didn’t go to the gym. I’m pretty sure I couldn’t even spell the world g-y-m and so consequently I didn’t have a sensational post baby body.
Those of you who know me know that my ‘baby’ is now aged 3 so why am I still unhappy with my swimming costume body? Why haven’t I done anything about it? Well it’s not easy is it? I do go to the gym and actually I enjoy exercise, it makes me feel strong. I try to eat healthily during the week but at the weekend I do like a couple of glasses of wine with my husband, we often share a takeaway and some chocolate. As busy parents to two young children these sorts of evening are our ‘date nights’. I try to balance a fairly healthy lifestyle with the enjoyment I get from food and drink. I could eat super-healthily all the time and not drink at all but I don’t think I’d be any happier!
So I suppose it comes down to a mental battle with myself to raise my own self-esteem. My body grew and gave birth to two amazing little people. I should embrace that and try to be happier with myself. I’ve spoken before about the importance of social media to my mummying life. I find it supportive to know that there are other mums out there who have the same worries as me. So I found this Instagram post from the @brummymummyof2 really uplifting.
As you can see from her account, over eight and a half thousand people ‘liked’ that post. I’m guessing a fair percentage of them were slightly body-anxious mummies like myself thinking “Yes!” And perhaps “I wish I could have that body confidence”.
So I’m putting myself out there (literally). This was a couple of years ago. I really need to work on my swimming pool hair! But you know, when I look at this picture what I remember was the feel of that warm squishy baby. How he’s got his hand holding onto me and how much fun we had at the pool during that holiday. So bring on the week of the swimming costume, I’m taking the plunge, throwing on my swimmers and throwing myself down the flumes with my kids. (Then I’m having a cocktail!)
Jenny x x x